Tuesday....

I'm determined to make my life work for me but have come to realize I have and never had any control on those I love.  What I thought was going to be inspirational to my husband and children has turned into resentment from the children and a great amount of distance from my soon-to-be exhusband.

Determined to remain friends with my ex (without benefits for certain) but friends all the same.  How am I preparing for the day that we will not longer be together? Relationships take work and so does the relationship with Self.

1.   Spend Time With Self.  I started making time for me, after waiting and waiting and waiting and finally realized Id continue to wait forever and would be old and grey and still be waiting.

What is time with self?  For me, it's been reading a good book (currently reading Six Frigates, The Epic History of the Founding of The U.S. Navy by Ian W. Toll.  Ian Toll has done extensive research from the anals of the Department of the Navy, National Archives, New York Historical Society and the Historical Society of Pennsylvania and various other places in search of real documentation to validate his writing).  It's a great read and, at times, I have to break, unlike reading my murder mysteries and life achievement novels, this one actually happened.

Sometimes, time with self is singing karaoke.  Yes, singing!!  Yes, karaoke!! Not in a shower or while driving but in front of real people.  It's truly amazing how it encourages me to continue doing good things and staves off sadness and depression.  Time with Self means taking the time to meet new people and sometimes challenges me to doing new things.

Stay encouraged and become determined to make it work.  If change is to be.... it must start with me!